L O V E hurts !

Fellas who ever been in a relationship

And had their heart f*cken torn out

You know what i mean it

And i realise that, that alot of my people suffer from heart breaks

From promises to lies to every tear drop that we cry

The promises to care & understand each others lives

From struggles at its worst, we said the love would never change

Then why do I feel lied to every time its saying

We said we had each other, unconditional love

If this is what love is, then I think I've had enough

The bullsh!t & the drama was nothing but wasted time

This thing that we call love is just illusions of the mind

All the smiles that we have is a story to be told

But nothing in the world can make up for all this bull

The problems that we faced there was something just reaching out

We shoulda took the hint that this sh!t wont be working out

I mean what have we been thinking, all those times we were together

Did u really think that we would be in love forever

At this very age we shouldn't be playing this game

Now I understand that love is pain

Love hurts so we all cry

Tears droppin from my eyes

The pain I can't explain

All I know is love is pain
Through these past few days I've been reminiscing back

It's the first time I couldn't understand what we had

Was it love? Was it passion? Was it all a waste of time?

Now its hate, now its pain, now its all this sh!t combined

I can't force myself to erase all our memories

But when I'm thinking back I always feel like u fooled me

Nobody to blame but myself from being blinded

Crying in my sleep hoping this hurting passes by

I've been told by my sisters how these guys are all the same

but you had me so convinced that my world suddenly changed

cause you always made me smile but a smile isn't forever

and I guess its unpredictable like change in the weather.

I thought we'd work it out like those other times before

but the truth had to reveal, we cant live a lie no more

I'm still young and I'm still trying to stay true to my heart

my dreams have disappeared and now my life's scattered apart

sumenye da berakhir dgn kesilapan diri sendiri ........

salah diri sendiri jugakk . if bkn slah diri aku yg mcm setan nie, owg ta uat kite mcm nie .baru skg nak pkr slh sndiri kan ?? dlu tana dgr owg nasehat , ta npk owg yg bole syg kite ,ta npk pengorbanan owg, aku lgsong ta hargai sumenye ... da ade dpn mate, aku bole bia kan dye thegeh2 mencari aku .. sdgkan aku sebok bcinta owg yg akan uat aku merana .

setiap owg ade kesilapan besar yg akan dye uat . btol ckp kak ija, blaja dr kesilapan dan dr kesilapan tu la mematangkan kite . LET BYGONES BE BYGONES ~

nana ckp :

"nana taw .nana tapena ade kawan mcm akak n sume at kedah tu ..seyesly mmg nana ade pakatan mlm je.sbb dlu nana ta pramah .nana suke uat owg tasuke at nana.smpy la skg .ta pnh nk brubah ..nana da uat slh, baru nana nk nyesal.nana mmg degil.tataw nk hargai ape yg ade dpn mate.sume owg baek dgn nana.skg?? nana da tade da sume tu.tmbh g nana uat prtikal at ipoh.terseksa sgt kak.ade kwn, tp ...tataw la.selfish gile nana nie."

kak ija ckp :

"ikut drh muda.akak pun pnh muda mcm nana.sbb tu akk xde nk s;h kn nana 100%.akk anggp nana mcm adik2 akk sndiri.nana ngn mira mcm adik2 sndiri je akk anggp.bila jd cmni.akk pun sian kt nana.akk tegur.bg nsht.sbb akk nk tngok adik2 akk jd elok.xnk adik2 akk wt mistake.lg 1,akk syg prshbtn kita semua.wpun kita bru knl.tp honestly.akk hapy knl korng sume.kta da mcm adik bradik.sbb tu akk x pnh kisah blnje korng sume.sbb akk anggp kita 1 fmly."

kak ija taw? nana syg pakatan malam . mcm family nana . nana syg sume . sume owg uat nana hapy n ta pkr masalah nana .even besa mane pon mslh nana tu .. myb what goes around comes around.. nana kene telan sme even pahet mane pon,even saket mane . nana kne accept totaly. bkn slamenye kite nak uat salah kan ? now,nana try .nana tana owg yg nana syg ,ilang dr idop nana.esp family n kawan2 :)

for along time....

title nk baek punye kan ? tp ta pndai sgt nk speaking2 nie . just a litle bit . hehe :) title i arynie "for along time" .hmmm. sbb2 uat title cmnie sbb nk luahkan la ape yg i ase slame nie . hope owg2 yg anggap i nie "jahat" . tp i tataw la . owg yg menilai sikap i nie . n terharu la gak owg dok kate2 nie kan . hahaha . baek o jahat kite tataw la. just be urself dala kan . kdg2 i ase gak i nie bodo dlm spanjang i kawan dgn someone . ntahlaa. nk explain pon agak susah tok owg phm . myb tade sape g paham aty i nie kot .oke la , asek merapu jea .nie la kate pembukaan nye :)

1stly, i dpt stdy at polimas kedah . for 1sem i dok kamsis . mmg tabole la dok dlm . sbb ta suke dok hostel2 nie dr dlu lg .ta suke kne kongkong . pastu sem2 i dok lua dgn my bestie GS meera . hehe . mmg dr sem1 kawan dgn dye nie . terbaek la kamu gs :) syg kau . bile da dok lua , so mmg kaki nie tabole dok ruma la . ta kua siang , ofcos nk kua mlm . jnji dpt kua shari tu . haa, nie baru nk cter sal someone nie . kn dok slalu kua mlm2 g mkn dgn gs at gani char kuwetiaw ,ade skali tu i prasan la someone nie sbb i mengalihkan muke ke arah dye . so prasan la dye nie dak myspace yg slalu cment "hye" tp i uat sombong plak . tp sbnrnye ta sombong sbb tyme tu bz kott . i pon tataw la .heehehe. bg dye i sombong tyme tu . then dye npk i ble i kua dr 7e . alek2 dr mkn ,i teros on laptop cment dye at myspace.hehehe . mmg sweet sgt tyme tu .

da start la knl2 dgn dye :) dye ajak jumpe ,g kua minum2 dgn kawan dye . name same je dgn dye . 1st meet dgn dye ,dye bole tipu yg dye tu baru abes spm .cm ta caye la muke cmtu, baru 18..mmg ta sangke laa. hahaha. dowang pon gelak2 kan i . i ckp i maw tgok ic sbb i taw dowang tipu i kan . last2 ngaku yg dowang tu da 24tahun . ehhehehe . da tuwe rupenye :) mlm tu lokasi dye gemilang burger . 1st day jumpe dye nie mmg best jea . tp i nie ta peramah sgt pon . malu kot sbb mule2 .hehe . then, pastu slalu la kua berdua dgn dye . smpy ade la name geng ,pakatan malam . mmg mlm2 kitorang lepak skali . gurau senda . mmg knangan la dok kedah tu . thnks kak ija, abg am , meera n wan :) nana takan lupe sume nye . walopon sikap nana nie ta btol sket . jahatkan nana :( sory sgt2 . nana tipu .

meh nana story ape yg nana tipu kamu sume . nana start "menipu" sejak bln4 kot asenye . nana terpakse tipu sbb nana phm prasaan kamu . tp nana nie bodoh sgt tataw mane yg baek mane jahat . msty owg marah dgn sikap nana nie . nana ade cpl dgn someone nie . myb kowang taw sape . nana cpl dgn owg yg bernama "bean" . dye dak poli gak . tp nana knl dgn dye bkn dlm poli . nana knl dlm mys . last2 kitorang meet . then tgok2 da cple . nana tataw nape nana cple dgn dye . mule2 nana ta syg dye . then nana tgok care dye sume , nana jd tersentuh plak . nana syg dye n so on la . sume phm kan bile da syg cmne . nana nie plak bodoh nape perlu cari owg yg sasau cm dye . tataw future dye cmne plak tok kite nty . disebabkan syg nana jd bodoh sumenye . smpy la nana ta sedar yg nana nie kne tipu kot . nie nana cter nie antara bln3 smpy bln5. nana smpy tipu kamu sume sbb dye . nk kua dgn dye . tp nana tapena lupe nk lepak skali dgn kowang sbb nana taw nana tipu kowang . nana serba salah sepanjang nana cple dgn bean . nana tipu byk dkt wan . mcm2 .. smpy wan nk kua dgn nana pon nana kate bz uat asgmt . tp seyez nana ckp , nana syg wan tp nana bodoh sbb cple dgn bean . tu sbb nana lyn wan mcm bf nana sndri . wan taw yg nana tahan ble jumpe wan. nana tahan dr menanges lg depan wan . nana suke wan tp nana tataw nape nana kne uat mcm nie . sbb nana taw gak wan msty taw ape yg da brubah at nana nie . nana break dgn bean awal bln6 . sbb dye kate dye da tawa aty n tabole go on dgn nana . hm , fine la sume tu skg nie dr b4 nie nana mcm owg gile smpy result final nana agak terok dr sem lepas . sume sbb nana bodoh ! panjang sgt cter nie . tp nana pendek kan yg penting2 jea. nie la explanation nana at kamu sume . smpy skg nana ingt , nana uat owg yg ta bersalah . tp jujur n ikhlas nana katekan ,nana ta pergunakan owg tok kepentingan nana . nana da byse susah tnp family nana . hope sgt kowang memahami gak perasaan nana . n nana taw wan skg ade someone yg lg bgos dr nana . slowly oke . walopape pon ,nana ikhlas slame nana bsame dgn wan n pakatan mlm . kowang mmg terbaik bg nana . nana syg kowang ! dan at cni gak nana nk mintak maaf dr ujong rmbot smpy ujong kaki . now nana nk mulekan care dan hidup baru tok menceriakan kembali mcm dlu . tade cple pon , nana bole idop da.. jnji kawan sgt pnting... i nver forget oke .

i need you now..

picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can’t fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of word, can’t stop looking at the door.
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little crazy,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.

just need you now dear ...

u almost in my mind since 1year ;(

my beloved and my SUPREMO .
mohd zahrul zafrien .
iloveusomuch !
but you just for awhile only .
thanks coz be my side .
happy with u .
iloveu until now .
everyone dont know how iloveu .
since 1year i try to 4get bout u .
but i cant .
still love u like crazy .
no boys can replace u now .
just u in my mind supremo .
how can i 4get bout huh ?
why u make me sad n brokenheart ?
love , care bout u , everyday want u , meet u , owez help u if having probs .
not enough for u supremo ?
u make me crazy bcoz of u .
make me love u .
make me sad .
make me remember what u do to me .
da memories .
now u got ur new GF .
make me so sad .
i try too much want 4get bout u .
my heart cant accept .
1year ago, u said u dont want to leave me .
will love me .
but its not forever to da relationship .
oh god , plz help to 4got bout da past .
i just want to be da real me and hapy with someone dat can love me .
dats all i want .
show who can love me with sincere .
hope !

diri sebenar ;)

assalamualaikum . ? disini aku nak mpekenalkan diri . name penoh aku , MASZUANA BT JAMALUDIN.panggil aku : nana saje oke ;) . aku dilaherkan pada 24 oct 1991 , hospital besar seremban. so totally aku owg nogori la. hobi , myspace, hang out dgn kawan². makan dan minum yang halal . dulu aku pernah bersekolah di sek.ren.keb.tunku kurshiah , sek.ren.keb. bndar baru sintok kedah , sek.men. tunku kurshiah . now im stdying at politeknik sultan abdul halim mu'adzam shah ,jitra kedah . kos perancangan bandar dan wilayah. details lg, name ayah kandung, jamaludin bin md nor. ayah tiri, mohd zamri bin md nor. name mak, maznum binti hamid. name kaka,maszuin binti jamaludin,1980. name abg ke2,mohd zaidee bin jamaludin,1983. name abg ke3,mohd fairus bin jamaludin,1986. name adek, mohd khairul nizam bin jamaludin,1994. ayah kandung aku da tade da(meninggal dunia ) . sampai skg aku still rindu kan arwah ayah . tp aku tabah since 1998 lg . btahan demi mak aku . hm, tamaw sdeh². aku nk hapy jea . n bg aku single is better ryte now . tamaw dok kalot² nk carik . bia la si DIA dtg sendiri . masih ade lg kot yg nak aku nie kan . aku lbh suka bkawan tuk mase skg. memg aku nk cpl tp blom kesampaian ag . aty aku masih blom terima ag ape DIA da uat . tgalkan aku dan pegi at BETINA tu ! fuckin' shit ! tp tape , aku try da best tok lupekan DIA. just now, aku hanya mampu menunggu ... da reality story . aku nie jenis suka gelak,berkawan, merepek, hangout, membeli something yang aku suka sgt . dan aku ta suka girlz yg blagak , poyo nak mampos, menggedik , perampas, bajet gila . so jgn nk uat pangai nie at aku . if owg oke dgn aku, oke la aku dgn dye . hehe ;D so be urself n dont make me hate you . thanks ;)